Starting Over

So I decided I want to write what I am feeling instead of to the public. Even though I'm a big believer in talking to the angels, I feel strange blogging about it because so many are so judgmental. But I have a need to express my feelings so here we are.

Last night something horrible happened. An violent Muslim group called ISIS not only set off bombs but had men shoot people in Paris in several areas across their city. It was horrible; not only that but less than a year ago the same group attacked a parody magazine office and a Jewish grocery in the same city. My heart is just sick. I have thought of nothing but what has happened and I have cried so much. My emphatic gift is overwhelming me today. It's not something that I can tell my husband Gary. Even though he wouldn't say anything, I know he would judge me as well.

However I did inform Alyssa to stay out of her  Facebook page because, since she shares my gift, I didn't want her to be overwhelmed as well.

So I prayed today to the angels to help me. Now I'm a bit calmer. But crying for no reason is overwhelming.

Today I spent alone in my bedroom, transcribing zoology notes for Alyssa. It's colder and now getting colder as the sun sets. Last night I prayed to have the angels and G-d to help Tina and Joe Price. Especially Joe. I wish he would come out of his depression to find a job before its too late. Here, jobs cease closer to Thanksgiving through to February. They are suffering so much. Tina is working a minimum wage job and Rusty is working a overnight job AND then he goes to college. He is on the edge all due to Joe refusing to find a job that isnt in the oil field industry. That boat has sailed. I doubt the oil field will come back for at least 5 yrs. I've asked for help not for me but for him and them. They spent so many yrs wasting money on boats, horses, hunting leases, ect. and didn't save anything when they had the money to save. Now this I feel for them and wish I could help.

I've asked the angel to strengthen my clairvoyant abilities but that doesn't seem to be in the cards.  I wish it was. What I have always wanted to be able to heal people by tough. I loved the idea of using my hands, my ablities and my knowledge to heal people in a natural  way instead of the western way. If I could do that I could heal myself as well.